We'll build a bridge of love between two worlds,

HAHA thats me looking r-e-t-a-r-d-e-d. Well, im so tired right now. Been waking up at 9plusplus everyday. 8.30 yesterday. Omg, its the holidays lehhhhhhhhhh! Anyway, nothing much these few days laa. Met Qiyin yesterday night and hung around Sunplaza. Saw longtimenoseepeoples like Chunleng. OMG I JUST REALIZED JIEYUNS SKINNY FOOT IS IN THAT PICTURE. Haha kay whatever, oh yea and it was Boyfriends dad's birthday yesterday and grandma's birthday the day before so ALOT of red wine. So much so im starting to appreciate red wine, harharhar. I wanna go drinking soon..Just not drunk. LOL. Lyn! If you read this, try smuggling some alcohol or something into that Christmas dinner! HAHA. White wine will do fine. Haha! Kidding, {: Well, Christmas is almost here..And i think Christmas, just like ChineseNewYear, just aint what it used to be anymore. No more Christmas spirit..No more celebrating the true meaning of Christmas. Apparently, nowadays, people just think of the presents, the decorations.. I guess this Christmas, in M'sia, i've gotta start thinking of alot of things.. Cause Someone arrived on Earth to save me on Christmas dunnohowmanyyears ago. Sigh, things are so complicated and so simple. Oh anyway, someone said something that really made sense that day, and i guess im gonna be nice and share it. :D Cause we were talking about fate and what the future holds and if you end up not loving your current partner. And he said.. Fate doesnt decide who you love, you decide who you love. You hold your destiny in your own hands. But still, i think.. At times, you just cant help falling in love with someone else, it happens..right? After all..we're all but human.

Sigh, sometimes i cant help missing people. They come and go so naturally without a turn of their head. Leaving me in helpless despair, trying so bad to get over them. They move on, without looking back to see if im okay. Its like whatever we shared didnt happen at all. I remember.. Him simply telling me 'Happy birthday, Dawn.' And i smiled like nobodys business, my heart soared to the highest point. And him..telling me that he knew i loved him, really truly loved him.. And telling me he loved me. Which ended up being a lie after all. Well, not as if they'll read this. But sometimes i just wonder.. If time could ever go back.. After all, I never wanted to lose any of them.. But i did anyway.

So maybe being nostalgic.. Wanting back what i used to have, thats okay. Sometimes, just wanting things back.. Its okay, isnt it? I just need to know what i have now is the absolute best, because he is.. I know he wont hurt me like they did, i know he might just have a chance to completely heal my wounds. Maybe i'll believe once again. Maybe i will, maybe i will.

To the A's and N's out there,

Dawn.