Hi? [: Look at my very annoyed face, okay whatever. Anyway i just wanted to explain. My uncle passed on.. As he has had AIDS all his life. In his bloodstream. So he recently found out he was going to pass and as people with AIDS have lower immunity.. He knew he was going so he just drank all day long until he passed on.. Last saturday. And my mum has flown back to Thailand and im not feeling so good and my dad is just being really nice and all. And i just keep thinking of my uncle.. Kay to those that i hang out with a lot like Qiyin and my boyfriend etc. I dont mention it cause..well i barely see my uncle. But he was really really nice to me. Since i was a kid. I still remember the previous time i went back and i just wanted to go look at the random fluffy puppy i saw by the small roadside and he just accompanied me there and watched me play with that tiny puppy. And he kept laughing at me. And he even went to slay a cow when i went there once so we could have beef. I will always remember his smile everytime i go over and visit. Just sucks.. Plus my sis ain't staying with me anymore again so that sucks more. And FYI, this is my first close family death. So, sorry for the mild depression. Previously my grand-dad died when i was in P1 or so but he never spoke to me as he disliked me.. So..rofl much. Aye, anyway. Have been sleeping at 3-4am or so daily since Mum left. Sucks balls. Just cant wait for the weekend to have a clear conscience about sleeping late and thinking too much therefore having to skip school.. Then i can go TopOne and sing&drink my heart out. Cheers baby, cheers. Anyhow. Studied a bit today at home and read a lot of FML. Actually, a lot of them are funny but some makes me wonder how people could have such horrible parents. I forgot already but there're a lot. And the guys and some girls are such dicks! Like.. the guy propose and the girl just says, no way and eats her dessert. ?! much! And the guy just hooked up with the girl who's been in love with him for a long time and a song plays and he says 'd'you know what you & that song have in common?' she smiles and says 'what?' he says 'you just got played, now get off my bed.' LIKE WHAT?! Gosh. Anyway ya, read it for yourself. Man, people are so cruel! Anyway yea, i totally didn't go out at all today. I wonder if i'll be able to sleep tonight. Bye ya'll.
I used to think that my family would be there indefinitely.
But i guess im wrong, nothing is indefinite, nothing lasts forever.
I used to think i would never ever get over this guy,
That the constant pain and drilling in my heart, the emptiness..
That it would be permenant. But i guess..wrong i am, again.
I overcame.. Not once, twice, but thrice.
I used to think i would never regret and i had made the right decision.
Of giving up or letting go of him.
But no, i..was wrong. Again. I regretted.
I used to think regrets were by default and a part of life.
But no, they're not. Im wrong again.
I used to think many guys were good guys.
As usual. Im wrong. When can i ever be right?
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