So was letting go of this a bad decision? A regret i will come to hate myself for? No. I dont think so. I may have lost them. And many more. And no doubt it makes me want to cry every single time because i miss the affection and love of these people i called family only coming to know that my one decision could change how close we were and the bonds we had. But no, i dont regret. I dont regret..
Sometimes..just moving on with life helps alot. Living each day as a gem on its own. Dont look back and dont think about tomorrow.. I did. And i really got to see the beauty of each day in itself and cherish all these sweet times with people i enjoy spending time with.

Maybe just slow down.. Forget it all. And capture moments and keep them dear in my heart. I still dont believe, til now, that time heals wounds. But these pictures are..'memory in the raw' (Sherlyn), and they remind me of everything i have to live for. So many what ifs, and whys, and how comes. But maybe..for once, i should just stop and say, thank you. Stop thinking bout controlling time and space, bout turning back time and wishing i could've done things diffrently but just living the moment. Should remember the reason why i fell in love and found my dear friends in the first place, the little things and the way my loved ones look forlornly into the sky, the way their adorable gestures cause me to smile, the way they stutter in their speech, the way we make fun and tease each other. So many things im sure everyone identifies with.. Why dont i just start cherishing peoples presence and be grateful for it every single day, instead of worrying about tomorrow..about what i did and about all that? To be someone's someone, you gotta be that someone.. Thats how i should do things from today.
The wind will bring it all back someday. Just like how everything goes with the wind.
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