We'll build a bridge of love between two worlds,

HEEEELLLLLLLLLOOOOOOOOO. Actually, im not as happy as i sound. HAHA. Im thinking alot right now. Even though a crazy bitch is next to me playing PSP and my boyfriend is sleeping in the room. Hm. And Brandon is here too. But still! Sigh. Ever feel like there are somethings you want to say so much but you know the truth best be kept to yourself? Sigh. Sometimes, people withhold so many feelings and words they want to say and yet, they have to, for the sake of others or whatever reason, bottle it up within themselves. Then end up hurting themselves, end up losing something. Because of what they thought they shouldnt say. Or some other times, we express the feelings, the most sacred feelings we have, love maybe, and yet, we get slashed raw, fresh wounds on our hearts. And the pain doesnt go away, its so excruciating, so unbearable pain. But what can we do? He is already long gone. We're left to wallow in our own sadness. So cheers to heartbreak, because everyone gets it. Haha! I think im crazy. Okay, anyway. Im gonna catch a movie later, been so long since i caught one. Hope its good!

Boyfriend, not that i dont care. I dont know how to care. You say you're afraid of losing me. Then what about me? Im afraid too. Im only human. This relationship is real. And for this relationship, i choose to forget any feelings i have lingering for anyone else from my past. I've given up a life of singlehood to be with you. If you're not confident in the way i feel for you, the why say you trust me in the first place? I dont know what you're thinking. If you chose to be with me and since you went through so much to be with me, then why now you keep saying you're afraid to lose me? Dont you know i cherish you as much as you cherish me? If you dont know that, then i've got nothing left to say.